What Happens When…

…Life happens.

All my great plans for my blog as I started it… plans for posts, plans to post frequently (once a week at least), they all went out the window when I found out I was pregnant and almost immediately found myself sick and exhausted beyond what I considered normal pregnancy stuff. But then, this is my first pregnancy with 2 little ones already demanding so much from me. From mid April through all of June, my days were as follows:

Get up, send Scott to work, feed the kids and I breakfast, put away any food, take a shower, walk the garbage down the driveway, feed the kids PB&Js and grab something for myself, and collapse on the couch for 2 1/2 hours. Sometimes I’d collapse before lunch without being able to even get dressed. Then, somewhere around 4pmish I finally would get enough energy to get dinner going and start cleaning the kitchen from our earlier meals.

Most of my time on the couch was spent napping, and I found that while I didn’t seem to get a whole lot accomplished in one day, I still had very little time online. I checked email, and facebook briefly once or twice a day and that was it. I quickly realized I had to let go of my “blogging dream” and just live. My children needed me, and now the new little Apple growing in me seemed to need me more then I remembered. My husband needed me too, as did my home, and I had so little energy. I was oh so very thankful to wake up the day after being “11 weeks” feeling like I could get things done before collapsing. And I did. The next couple weeks reminded me not to try and get done everything on my good days because it would make me more tired the next day, but if I paced things, I could get so much more accomplished. The piles of papers and clutter started disappearing (you know, the stuff that needed to get put in another room, and I didn’t even have the energy to take an extra trip down the hall unless I had more then one reason), and my kitchen counters started to be [mostly] clear on a regular basis again. I think the whole family was glad to get some more participation from me. And of course, I realized that during my time of “surviving” I had become lazy in putting the time and effort into training my little ones as I didn’t care if they were getting into trouble as long as it wasn’t hurting them. 🙂

God has also done a lot of work in my heart this summer. He’s broken down walls and barriers that I didn’t realize I had put up. I only knew something wasn’t right because I couldn’t seem to draw close to Him like I used to. But God never leaves the side of one of His children who’s seeking Him (or the ones who aren’t). He never stops working even when I feel like I’m holding on by a string. God is good! His ways are right! He amazes me repeatedly with how He works. He takes something I think is life-altering and makes sure it IS! He softens hearts that are hard, and hearts that don’t know they are hard. He opens eyes to see through His eyes, from His perspective, and He opens ears to hear.

Announcement

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I know I’ve been a little quiet over the last week and a half. I have been very tired lately and less than 2 weeks ago took the above pregnancy test! As you can see, it’s positive!!! Of course, I then realized that the funny feelings in my tummy after breakfast the last few mornings was  morning sickness, and since taken the test, I have gotten more sick with each passing day. The other day it was a migraine mixed with nausea, and today it was extreme shakiness/nausea/dizziness that lasted pretty much the entire day. When I woke up I could barely stand, but after slowly getting some nutrition into me, I was feeling well enough to function, just on a very slow level. My days have consisted of naps with the kids, lots of lemon water, and sea salt water, trying to stay on top of housekeeping and taking it easy during this sick trimester! After one of my emotional days, we decided it would be best to switch to paper and plastic dishes as much as possible, for now to help with lessening the amount of dishes that need washing. It was made the dishes so much less overwhelming!

We are very excited to welcome our 3rd Little Apple into the family sometime right after Christmas. My due date is December 24th, but both my babies have been 12 and 14 days late. So we are planning for sometime around January 6th. We are so excited, and Andy can’t wait to have his “my baby at my house”. 🙂 Every time we’ve visited new babies recently, he’s wanted to have his own. I can’t wait to see the two of them with their baby brother or sister!

This has set back some planned posts, as I have not been on the computer much. But I’m hoping to get finished on them and finally post the review of Embracing Beauty soon!

This week we are enjoying visiting with our friends at SevenFarmgirlSisters and celebrating my birthday! All while, hopefully not being too sick so I can enjoy it all!